I GOT THE JOB!!! I was so happy when they asked me when I could start. This is amazing.

On to other news. I got a call from a publishing company, but they help you do self publishing and I really don't have that type of money. But the thought that I got a new job which could in a sense, help with that obsticle made me very happy.

I could make up to:

 $125,000.00 DOLLARS A YEAR!

I have not had a OBE yet. I guess I have not really been trying to conduct one. I do think that if I concentrated more on my LUCID DREAMS then I would have one. But until then, I just want to concentrate on my book and on work so that I can get the money that I need to stop working for someone else and be able to write and make my living off of something that I really want to do.

Until then, you try to have a nice day YA'LL

On and I saw this movie about ENRON and the fall of the company and it was very interesting. I do suggest that you pick it up and take a look at it.

I was just coming on here to leave something with you guys to let you know that I have not gone anywhere, though I know that you except any new members to this site.

I have not had too many things on my mind. I guess I have been giving my brain a break for a moment.

I do have some good news. I have a second interview for a Mortgage Company and I am hoping that I get the job because I really need the money. Plus I do believe that it would be a nice thing to do and a very good way to establish something until my book is finished and published and my music is discovered by an A&R.

Until the next time I get online and share all my hopes, dreams, fears and secrets, ya'll try and have a good day.

Love peace and Empathy to all.

Peace

When is depression so much to bear that it causes those close to us to seem… Annoying. Don’t get me wrong, I just got out of a depression, but after I’d got down so low I just felt like I couldn’t go any deeper.

It’s almost like the two of us are moving far away from each other (my cousin and I). We used to be favorite cousins and though we talk to each other now, it seems like he is just sad the entire time I am around him.

Both of our hair started to thin and I developed a twitch in my eyes. Why would someone want to constantly be like that? I am not saying that everyone can approach a situation like I can, but when I saw some pictures of me that I took and I’d gained about 25 pounds and my skin became awful, that was enough for me to change how things were going in my life.

I just hope that things go better for him. I would hate for anyone as young as he and I to die of a stroke because of stress in our life that we bring upon ourselves. Okay, I finished for the moment (LOL). Until the next entry, Love, peace and empathy.

I am soooooo UNinspired! It seems like all the music I've heard has just been sucky to me. Yeah, there are some songs that I really like, but because there is just a slant in good music, the radio and videos play the same songs and videos every single freaking minute of the day. It is driving me crazy. And to make matters worse, I'm not due in the studio until Friday. So I'm still writing music and trying to inspire myself, but it's hard. If anyone knows some good music dont hesitate to pass the knowledge my way. I'm interested in music by artist such as:

Nina Simone, The Beatles, Michael Jackson, Jay-Z, Common, Kanye West, Janet Jackson, Miles Davis, John Coltrane, Biork, Ella Fitsgerald, Etta James, Aretha Franklin, The Roots, Slum Village, Nas, NOTORIOUS B.I.G., and a few others I don't feel like metioning right now (lol)

Get at me with some INSPIRATION!!!!

Thanks

I have not been able to do anything yet. Whenever I go to sleep I just... sleep. Well, I figure soon enough I'll be able to experience one of those one of a kind OBEs.

In other news. I had to go to court today for a traffic ticket. It was AWEFUL! The way I had to sit there was monstrous. I got there at 1:00 pm and didn't leave until 10 minutes till FOUR PM! They kept making me go upstairs then downstairs, then cough, poot and all that jazz (the last part was fictional, of course).

All of this bull-ish was for a supposed stop and go about half a block from my damn apartment complex. I was so heated. And the final amount of fees I have to pay... DRUMROLL PLEASE........

$206.00 !!!!!

I could use some Rum and Coke right now (Coca-Cola...not cocain).

Until the next time I visit... Love , peace and empathy!

Today I was reading a lot of things about the OBE thing. I was very interested in what it all meant. I am slightly scared to try it again, but the real reason why I have not done it again is because: the only way I know how to do it is through LUCID DREAMS. So until I have a dream and know that I am having a dream, I don’t do a great job at conducting an OBE.

So anyway, I am still waiting until the right time to try again for the first time in about six years. Until then, I would not mind if someone logged on and shared some of the experiences they have had with this type of stuff. Any information that I can get will eb helpful for my book. Get at me some stories…Even if some are made up, but try not to make the experience seem to fictional (though I’d prefer real experiences).

I want to share the first OBE experience that I had about six years ago. I need to do research on the subject in order to make my book accuate.

I had read a lot of things online about the process and was very excited about trying it out. I'd tried to experience an OBE without being asleep but my concentration level was not strong enough. I just couldn't focus. Either I would get an itch or I would hear a noise in the room that would make me become totally aware of what was around me.

I'd read in a book that Lucid Dreaming could help one get an OBE. The trick was to look at your wrist (and if a watch was on it, look at that) keep checking it throughout the day to get yourself used to the motion of lifting your arm an looking at your wrist watch. In the dream world you'll do the same movements out of muscle memory. In the dream world nothing is constant. So, by looking at your watch, if it says 11:44 and you look away for a second, then look back the time will read 5:01 (example, of course). This is to remind you that you are dreaming.

LUCID DREAM- Basically are when you know you are having a dream, while you are dreaming. These are not that easy to come by. Someone when I know I'm dreaming it is hard to get out of it. And when you are dreaming and can hear everything that is going on around you in the room, you are not having a lucid dream.

While in my LUCID DREAM I just so happened to look at my watch on my arm. I forgot what time it said. I know the watch was red. I put my arm down, then quickly picked it back up and looked at the watch. It was different! OMG I am lucid dreaming. At that moment I mentally said, "ASTRAL PROJECT!"

I felt these wierd vibrations engolf me. You know how you'll get the shivers for a second. Well, this feeling sweeps over your entire body. I heard a loud WHOOSH! noise and shivered upward. I BEGAN TO PANIC. OH MY GOD, I did it, I thought. I looked around and it was slightly hard to see. It was like I was not seeing with my two human/physical eyes but with my entire head.

The first decision I made was to walk over towards the door. After struggling a moment to get myself from off of the bed, I tried walked towards my bedroom door. The closer I got to the door, the harder it was for me to walk. I begin to sink into the floor. It was frustrating me! I just couldn't move. It was getting harder and harder. Then, I blanked out. I woke up about two hours later (in my physical body). It was the most crazy thing that every happened to me.

The second experience was kinda like the first, except that time I tried to OBE without LUCID DREAMING. I couldn't concentrate and started to fall asleep. I think I went too deep into sleep, but I woke up slightly and mentally told myself, "ASTRAL PROJECT!" I felt the familiar shivers and heard the WHOOSH sound while vibrating out of my physical body. After a few moments of looking around, I lost conscienceness and didn't wake up until some time later.

I have not tried to do it since then and I guess after all those years I am ready to try again. I'll let you know what happens after I try. Until then, Love, Peace and Empathy.

Decided to drop by and say hello.

I read a book today on O.B.E. (Out of Body Experience). I had two of those about six years ago and I'm interested in finding out a little more about the process. I also think that it will aid me in writing my book. I can add a lot about it inside of there to give the story a twist or something.

But I am really interested in finding out all the many ways that Astral Projection can be used in the everyday life. I think that it will be enlightning and also fun.

Today I was at the library and this stupid ass black guy was talking on his cell phone for like 15 minutes. I went to the suggestion board and saw this message to the library staff:

Could you guys enforce the NO CELL PHONE rule. This guy sat on his cell phone for a whole half an hour and I thought it was very rude.

The library wrote back saying:

Why in the world did you sit there for 30 minutes!? Next time, get up and tell a staff member.

...I felt stupid for sitting there for just 15 minutes... Funny how things are.

Until next time, Love, Peace and Empathy.

Well, I'm back again. I took a small hiatus for the passing of one year into another. It seems as if the transition is so hard to do until completed.

The break up that I spoke about so many tomes is still on, and like I said before, it is not going to go into full effect until six months from now.

..Kinda makes you wanna kick some random guy in the balls, huh?

Anyway. I've been working on a novel, bit I have not been liking the way it's been unfolding. So, today I thought of writing a novel about a woman who receives "gifts" and sees into the future. She see's that some girl is gonna die. She must find the girl before it is too late. She doesn't know why she needs to find this girl and save her life, something in her heart is telling her to do it.

She meets a guy and (of course) falls in love. As she continues the mysterious hunt for the girl, she discovers the girl IS HER (kinda predictable ending, right?)! But as she digs deeper, she finds out she's pregnant by the guy she fell in love with and a psychic-who is helping her in her journey- wants to sacrifice the child after it is born for the biggest satanic ritual EVER! I think it's a good plot.

So, I'll be working on that and I will be checking back in sporadically to tell you guys how I'm doing. Until then... Love, peace and empathy.

It's knowledge.

It's been a while since I have been on here. I had to give my computer away to rent-a-center. Yes, I was stupidly about to pay $3,000.00 to finance a computer that I could get for only $500.00. I guess everyone has to live and learn.

Now I am at the Library... It is a bunch of young kids who are just trying to find cheat codes and big TITS and ASSES (excuse the language). I will not have my computer back until this guy can make me one. I don't know how long that will be. I can honestly say that I missed reading what everyone has to say on a regular basis.

I will be back on shortly and until then I hope you all stay safe on Christmas and New Years Day....

Well, I guess I could talk about something before I leave for an extended four days. Well, until I write the next entry into my blog, stay safe.

This is going to be short (like Seth Green). But I put Tea Tree Oil on my face to dry out some of the oil (I have oily skin. I hate the shine) and my face smells like a fish swam past watching a donkey pee on my face. The smell is so embarrassing to me.

MY FACE JUST WET ITSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGG

I like saying arg because Charlie Brown screamed it all the time. Try it some time.

AAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGG! Somebody please give me some medication for ADD...or is it ADHD? just HIT ME SARGY(sergeant)!

I know I should be in bed because it is about to be 1 o'clock in the morning. I can't though. I keep thinking about how my love life was so great just a couple months ago and now it is falling. I have been trying to find a soul that comes close to my ex and I just cant. I find that so depressing. I hate to say this but.... I dont believe in long lasting love (LLL). I just dont think it will ever happen with me and anyone besides GOD. ANd I'll admit, to a certain point, I am in love with GOD.

Rule #1- LOVE FOR and IN LOVE are not the same thing. There is a difference.

And as I sit here on this computer I am filled with rage and sadness. HOW DO I LIVE LIKE THIS!!??? It hurts so bad! OMG!! OOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH GOD of Adam and Eve.

Oh, by the way, I saw Chronicles of Narnia today. It was real swell.