SHOP..TILL YOU vomit on your shirt.
Today I went shopping. I got a few shirts and jeans to make myself feel good about being alone on Christmas. Well, I’m not going to be alone physically but emotionally I will be. I know I sound sensitive but I at least wanted a damn Christmas tree. I wanted something to help me get in the holiday spirit.
I went to Dillards to see my cousin. It was so nice seeing him all dressed up in a shirt and tie. He helped me pick out a few outfits and I stood around and talked with him for about two hours. He kept pointing to this AWESOMELY BEAUTIFUL woman. A woman who he claimed was his future wife…. She doesn’t know that yet.
After spending $111.01 dollars on clothes, I decided to go to my parent’s house to check up on them. I have been avoiding my father because of his situation with cancer. We really don’t know how much longer he has to go. It was sad seeing the house and the cloud that seemed to hang over top of it.
I will write something later, but I just wanted to put my 2 cents in real quick.
Love, peace and empathy
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awww im sorry to hear about ur dad... and im sorry to hear about u being alone on Christmas... cheer up things will get better... |
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It seems like all of his faith in living-or the possibility of living- is gone. I can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. I just wish he wanted to live so that we could get closer then what we are now. Sad, but life still has to move on. The moon stills remains in the sky when it's "supposed" to be gone, the sun still rises and the world keeps spinning. So I, as the world, have to keep moving as well. Thanks for the comment. |
